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Pepper077
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Name: Pepper
Birthday: 1/12/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: GOD. Seth Young. Laughing hysterically. Eating chili with cheese and sour cream. lilies from my Seth. Singing Karaoke. Bowling. Looking at old pictures. Titanic. Jurassic Park. Signs (from God and M. Night Shyamalan). Flip flops. Going on vacation. Camping. Sledding. Basketball (I'm best friends with the Pistons now that we've met). Stephen King. My Latin Lover. DestructOmatch. Long train rides. Roller coasters. Mario Kart. Smoothies. Watching Cops with a big bowl of chicken noodle soup when I'm sick. Talking to younger kids by making weird noises with my mouth. Screech. Thunder Storms when it's night time. The smells of Summer time. Girl Scout cookies. Smiling. Looking at the stars. Roasting marsh mallows. Hayrides. Loving and being Loved
Expertise: I can make a mean tomato sandwhich if you know what I mean.
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  Pepper077
Member Since:
4/17/2004
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| In one second everything seemed just fine. I was floating through life's current with waves that could hardly be considered a rapid. The next thing I know my raft is overturned by an unexpected branch poking out of the water. Right now I'm splashing around in a panic, gasping for breath. To the onlooker I'm standing in a pool of water up to my knees, safe as can be. But inside I struggle. My raft has not floated too far down the river. I see it and in a moment of ration I tell my self it will be okay as long as I can swim to it. I calm myself and start heading toward my hope. To my horror I see that up ahead the river divides into two. One of its meanders is calm and steady as far as the eye can see. But the other drops off into a large plateau. At the bottom of the fall are many rocks which would surely break my body if I were to be pulled in that direction. The sides of this river are wide, I can not swim to the edge to save myself. I must follow which ever direction my raft goes or I will surely be lost.
Now all I can do is wait and hope, hope and wait. Pray. Pray. Pray. Trust. Trust. Trust.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, and the courage to change the things that I can, and the wisdom to know the difference between them.
My hope and strength are in you Lord
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| My life is busy busy busy. But honestly, I don't think I'd feel right complaining about it. Classes are tough, but so far they are going well. My small group starts meeting this Monday and I actually had some girls sign up to be in my group. I'm working at K-Mart on the weekends and that's going good, Sundays have been quiet. I got a new job as a campus safety officer and I start work tomorrow evening. The next two weeks are going to be a little crazy training for that because I'll be working a lot of late night shifts. I'm working with Hospice every Monday and Tuesday night. Even though going there can be slightly depressing, it's also really inspirational and fulfilling. Trisha has been staying with Seth and I for the past month and we haven't had any major fights. We've actually gotten along extremely well. Every Sunday I get to sing at church and spend time with family. Seth I have a really healthy relationship. Spending a little more time away from each other due to school and work has only made our time together more enjoyable. I've felt a lot of stress with all these things going on, but I haven't broke down and cried about it (which is a good sign). I think I'm going to be able to manage this with some prayer and hard work.
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| Tonight I had small group leader training. I'm getting really excited now! It comes with a lot of responsability but I feel like God is really preparing me. I've been totally stressed out all day. On my way to class my shoulders and stomache were aching because I was sick with stress. Tomorrow I start my internship and I've been working myself up for over a week. In addition to that I was nervous for the leader training. But all of my stress seemed to melt away at the meeting and was replaced with warm feelings and great expectations for the future. If you're looking for something to pray for please pray that girls would sign up to be in my small group and that there would be great dynamics, a real chemistry. Pray for God to prepare their hearts for our future meetings together. And pray that God would use me as a vessel to speak to these girls. I can't wait to see what God is going to do at Spring Arbor... | | |
| I feel like my life is really speeding up now. My internship was approved, yay! I'm going to start work at Hospice of Jackson in about a week and a half. My class load is fairly stressful. I have less credits this semester but the classes I am taking are going to wipe me out. If all goes well, I should be graduating this May (I might need to take a summer course). I can't believe that in one year I'll be done earning my undergraduate! The only bad part is that as soon as I finish school I have to start paying back my loans. Life goes by so quickly. | | |
| When playing Super Mario World was a part of my top five favorite things do in life I spent hours mastering the game. I couldn't wait for school to be over so I could run down the street and join my brother in conquering Donut Land and saving the Princess from the evil Bowser. When first learning how to play the game the levels seemed challenging. I always seemed to run into a flying fish or get hit by a stray fireball. But over time I memorized where the koopas and bullets liked to come from and where to get a mushroom or feather. I also discovered the start select combo. If a level is already won and you play again (to get some free guys or a feather) you can hit start and then select to get out of the level. This is especially useful if you know you're going to die. If you're fast enough, you can pause in mid fall or just before a stray shell hits you and leave the level unscathed. After learning this technique pausing the game when danger is near becomes a reflex. My quick finger has saved Mario and Luigi many a day. But sometimes this new found reflex caused me grief. When playing new levels I still hit the start button when I knew I was going to die. But in this situation start and select couldn't save my Italian friend. Instead the game only mocked me, showing a freeze frame of Luigi falling over a ledge.
I started writing this story with a metaphor in mind. But I discovered it doesn't really work, so I guess I'm going to take this in a different direction.
My life is like playing a new level of Super Mario World. I'm familiar with the buttons and the nature of the bad guys and floating question mark boxes. But I have no idea how these things are going to be placed within my environment. I don't know when I'm going to face an end guy (or a couple of fire breathing rhinos) in a castle. And when I'm in despair I can't start and select my way out of a difficult day. I'm stuck.
I know, I'm a cheese ball.
One of the nice things about playing Super Mario World is that there is the ability to erase a saved game and start all over again. You can save the Princess as many times as you want.
I'm glad that God lets us start all over again.
I think I'll erase this game and start fresh tomorrow. The guilt and anger are going out the window.
Cheers to a new day.
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